I am sooooooo tired of the heat. And it doesn't help that my dad won't ever turn the air on.. I'm hoping we won't have to endure this nasty weather for much longer. (Niya, I am jealous!)

Things are going by fast. Like super rapid fast. I swear I was beginning my senior year yesterday and graduating elementary school the day before that. I SWEAR! And now I am a freshman.. in college. It's almost fucking Halloween already. Which is my favorite holiday :) I HAVE to go to Knotts Scary Farm this year since I missed it last year. I think Matt and I planned to go together but I can't remember. I still need a job though, so first things first.

Speaking of jobs, I HATE job searching. It's probably one of the worst things anyone ever has to do, especially in this shitty economy. I feel like I've applied everywhere and now I'm just reapplying because I still haven't found anything. I'm even resorting to the spectrum, as far as it is.

On another note, things have been alright in general. Tomorrow, I am hanging out with Julia for the first time in forever. Riiiiiiiight? I'm actually really excited because I've missed her craziness and I'm pretty sure she missed me too. We just needed a break.. :)

Adam and I have also been spending a lot of time together recently. We've been talking about getting back together so we'll see how that goes. He says he feels comfortable around me. But it's like.. a heightened comfortability. Like he isn't this comfortable around any other girl, I guess. I just need him to care about ME.

Oh. My. God. My fucking wisdom teeth are coming in and it HURTSSSSSS! :'( The pain gets more intense towards the end of the day and I just want to cry myself to sleep. We definitely do not have the money to get them removed so I don't know what the hell we're going to do. I don't even want a dentist looking at my teeth. They are so gross. And I blame my parents because every time I would get a cavity filled, we wouldn't have the money to get a crown on top and the filling would just fall out eventually. So I'm overly sensitive about my teeth.. If they don't get fixed soon, I won't even have teeth! :'( But.. it might just be cheeper to have fake teeth than to keep filling my cavities and have them fall out. Soooo maybe I prefer no teeth.. UGH.

Dillon Cheney and I aren't friends anymore. And I couldn't be happier. Last night, he talked all this shit on Rachel and then complained to me about her. I told him that it had nothing to do with me and he said that I shouldn't side with her. I told him that I can't handle people who get so easily upset and are this melodramatic. He responded with: "It's two faced fucks like you that drive me to depression and cutting." I flipped. I told him that he couldn't make me feel sorry for his poor decisions. And he said: "I don't blame you for my poor decisions, I blame you for giving me a reason to make them." I said: "I don't make you do shit. I cannot believe you actually blame others for your problems. That is so pathetic. YOU are pathetic." And that was the end of that. I simply refuse to be friends with people like that. People who are fake and blame others for the fucked up shit they do. People who get so angry, who theaten and cause unnecessary scenes. Ridiculous..

Soo the band Lights is playing a show in San Fransisco on November 4th and I kind of want to go.. ROAD TRIP! I think it would be so much fun to spend a few days there and see Lights. I would totally get grounded but I don't even care. I would do it. I want to gooooooo. :)